Autumn - The Season of Daydreaming#
A few days ago, I opened my universe and saw this popular blog post titled "Take a Moment to Daydream, Just a Cup of Coffee's Time," and I was pleasantly surprised when I listened to it before going to bed with my headphones on.
Doing nothing while daydreaming is meaningless, yet it also has meaning. Daydreaming is a way for me to empty my mind. It's nice to do something meaningless. When you do anything, you always have to think about its significance, and it's really tiring.
When I heard this podcast, I resonated with it both mentally and physically.
I have classes every day, but I don't understand the many mathematical formulas that the teachers talk about in class. It feels like I'm just killing time. When I don't have classes or when they're over, I ride my bike to my workstation and start watching CS courses. Mentally, I've already jumped three years ahead, preparing for work. I'm not particularly annoyed or particularly happy. I'm calmly preparing for job hunting. I unlock my phone and don't know what to look at, so I lock it again. I go to the cafeteria to eat, find a queue with fewer people, and take the food back as takeout due to epidemic prevention and control measures. It's a plain day, but I wish there were some ripples in my life.
It's not necessary for everything to have meaning, and it's not necessary to be 100% positive.
After the first two classes on Thursday, I moved a chair to the balcony, basked in the sun, listened to the podcast, and felt the refreshing autumn weather throughout my body.
In the current rhythm of life, I hope we can relax normally, daydream appropriately, and enjoy daydreaming. We shouldn't have to wait until retirement to enjoy a leisurely life.
Want to Daydream with Others#
In the podcast mentioned above, it also talked about daydreaming with friends, not doing anything in particular, just having a dreamy look in our eyes. It feels so beautiful without having to deliberately do something. Sitting on the balcony, feeling the breeze during spring and autumn, not doing anything, is really meaningful, so meaningful. Similarly, if I daydream with her, it must be wonderful too.
During my postgraduate studies, I don't have many social relationships, at least not at the moment. I really want to hear about other people's worlds. Maybe I'll have to find some activities later, otherwise, I'll lose my spirit.
A friend asked me about my thoughts on marriage and having children in the future. After going through a relationship, completing a year of graduate studies, and graduating from undergraduate school, my perspective on the world has changed dramatically. You make me reconsider these questions, and it feels painful. I hope marriage is not simply a material match, and I hope to experience the feeling that 1 + 1 > 2. In reality, you have to consider material foundations, family differences, and more after establishing a clearer relationship. As for having children, it feels difficult to have any thoughts now. The birth of a new life is quite sacred. We all think about the upbringing and education of our children. They will have their own thoughts and become distinct individuals, but it's also based on certain foundations. When they can truly think for themselves, how should they face the confusion brought by the world? Maybe their parents don't have the answers either, they just let time resolve it. I want to selfishly find the answers to my own life first.
I still want to believe that I can meet someone and cultivate an intimate relationship, but it seems like a side task in life. I also hope that my parents will let me be as willful as a child in this matter.
Put on Headphones and Stroll the Streets of Autumn#
Recently, I've been enjoying listening to white noise that I stumbled upon. Playing music at home in the rain is especially suitable as white noise when studying. The singing is vague, and you don't need to understand what they're singing about. Just immerse yourself in your own world.
I like listening to Li Jian! I feel that his image and voice are equally clean and comfortable. I also listened to a song shared by Kuang Ami a long time ago, A Person Who Creates the Most Explosive Sound on Earth! It soothes my body and mind.
Autumn is here, and I hope everyone can daydream and fill their lives with seemingly meaningless things! Forget about efficiency and fulfillment...
Have a happy weekend, everyone~